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Are you ok with something a little more physical? by imsabbath84 in LivestreamFail

[–]dont_gift_subs 185 points186 points  (0 children)

standing up after viewing Dr. K's luscious locks is a fool's gamble

Twitch Streamer Ohlana has passed away (Clip is irrelevant) by lilbuddy__ in LivestreamFail

[–]DoubleHeldFlash 291 points292 points  (0 children)

Saw this posted on this sub a long time ago [HERE] and I feel like it helped me a lot to understand how I was feeling at the time. Hopefully reposting it here can help some others who may be fighting depression right now during these shitty times.

When you have depression it’s like it snows every day.

Some days it’s only a couple of inches. It’s a pain in the ass, but you still make it to work, the grocery store. Sure, maybe you skip the gym or your friend’s birthday party, but it IS still snowing and who knows how bad it might get tonight. Probably better to just head home. Your friend notices, but probably just thinks you are flaky now, or kind of an asshole.

Some days it snows a foot. You spend an hour shoveling out your driveway and are late to work. Your back and hands hurt from shoveling. You leave early because it’s really coming down out there. Your boss notices.

Some days it snows four feet. You shovel all morning but your street never gets plowed. You are not making it to work, or anywhere else for that matter. You are so sore and tired you just get back in bed. By the time you wake up, all your shoveling has filled back in with snow. Looks like your phone rang; people are wondering where you are. You don’t feel like calling them back, too tired from all the shoveling. Plus they don’t get this much snow at their house so they don’t understand why you’re still stuck at home. They just think you’re lazy or weak, although they rarely come out and say it.

Some weeks it’s a full-blown blizzard. When you open your door, it’s to a wall of snow. The power flickers, then goes out. It’s too cold to sit in the living room anymore, so you get back into bed with all your clothes on. The stove and microwave won’t work so you eat a cold Pop Tart and call that dinner. You haven’t taken a shower in three days, but how could you at this point? You’re too cold to do anything except sleep.

Sometimes people get snowed in for the winter. The cold seeps in. No communication in or out. The food runs out. What can you even do, tunnel out of a forty foot snow bank with your hands? How far away is help? Can you even get there in a blizzard? If you do, can they even help you at this point? Maybe it’s death to stay here, but it’s death to go out there too.

The thing is, when it snows all the time, you get worn all the way down. You get tired of being cold. You get tired of hurting all the time from shoveling, but if you don’t shovel on the light days, it builds up to something unmanageable on the heavy days. You resent the hell out of the snow, but it doesn’t care, it’s just a blind chemistry, an act of nature. It carries on regardless, unconcerned and unaware if it buries you or the whole world.

Also, the snow builds up in other areas, places you can’t shovel, sometimes places you can’t even see. Maybe it’s on the roof. Maybe it’s on the mountain behind the house. Sometimes, there’s an avalanche that blows the house right off its foundation and takes you with it. A veritable Act of God, nothing can be done. The neighbors say it’s a shame and they can’t understand it; he was doing so well with his shoveling.

I don’t know how it went down for Anthony Bourdain or Kate Spade. It seems like they got hit by the avalanche, but it could’ve been the long, slow winter. Maybe they were keeping up with their shoveling. Maybe they weren’t. Sometimes, shoveling isn’t enough anyway. It’s hard to tell from the outside, but it’s important to understand what it’s like from the inside.

I firmly believe that understanding and compassion have to be the base of effective action. It’s important to understand what depression is, how it feels, what it’s like to live with it, so you can help people both on an individual basis and a policy basis. I’m not putting heavy shit out here to make your Friday morning suck. I know it feels gross to read it, and realistically it can be unpleasant to be around it, that’s why people pull away.

I don’t have a message for people with depression like “keep shoveling." It’s asinine. Of course you’re going to keep shoveling the best you can, until you physically can’t, because who wants to freeze to death inside their own house? We know what the stakes are. My message is to everyone else. Grab a fucking shovel and help your neighbor. Slap a mini snow plow on the front of your truck and plow your neighborhood. Petition the city council to buy more salt trucks, so to speak.

Depression is blind chemistry and physics, like snow. And like the weather, it is a mindless process, powerful and unpredictable with great potential for harm. But like climate change, that doesn’t mean we are helpless. If we want to stop losing so many people to this disease, it will require action at every level.

Has anyone seen the last few minutes of DrDisrespects stream? It’s quite telling. "Life is weird right now" and "We get through this". by jahiscallin in LivestreamFail

[–]ABCeeDeeEyy 1576 points1577 points  (0 children)

The way Doc sat there and silently watched that fucking Roblox vid is like when your whole world is fucked and you stop and read kids comic on the back of the cereal box to escape life for a minute as your world burns around you. You get to enjoy a simpler time for a brief moment of pure procrastination. It’s like when you’re at the hospitals waiting for hard to hear news about a loved one and you take a moment to watch the kids cartoon on the TV. You look at that cartoon differently for a moment, without judgement, in a brief moment of escape from dreadful reality that you know is about to come back and hit you full force once you zone back in.

I just don’t see Doc silently watching a fucking roblox video for that long without talking shit about it. The dude was either desperately trying to escape his impending reality for a brief moment, or he was using the moment to pretend to watch and escape having to entertain while he stared into the screen and imagined his whole world burning.

It was eerie and unsettling.

Soulja Boy living his best life by Sal_Sharpington in LivestreamFail

[–]Mojotun 44 points45 points  (0 children)

Introducing the SouljaScape - An Android device that only has OSRS Mobile installed. Along side it's launch are the add-ons SouljaLite(Which runs Runelite) and the SouljaScape 3(RS3 Mobile).

"Why get this when you can just play RuneScape normally?" Some may ask, but after collaborating with Jagex it will be the one place where you can listen to Soulja Boy freestyle over every song in the game. Nothing will get you as pumped as him cheering you on as you fight your way through The Inferno.

GiantWaffle and Stivitybobo accused of sexual assault during SGDQ 2014. by gitobel255 in LivestreamFail

[–]stinsfire_smite 215 points216 points  (0 children)

Telephone, Taxi, bus train, another hotel/motel/home sound like pretty good measures to leave that place so you don't get raped again. Sound like pretty viable options to me. But somehow she thought it would be better to stay with them the second night after having sex with them against her will?

Her story sounds so sketchy and more like regret to me.

I was in a situation (not as a victim) that is somewhat like this. I (male) was 16 and it was new years eve (alcohol up to a certain % allowed with 16 years here). Big party, about 30 people, everyone was drunk and stoned out of their minds.

I couldn't even walk straight anymore (and later that night puked/passed out as many did.. we were all pretty unexperienced with alcohol and weed) and a girl I had made out a couple of times (no sex) came to me and was equally piss drunk. Started kissing me, grabbed my crotch, tried to get into my pants and then asked me to "go some place where we are alone.. like the bathroom or somewhere outside" I didn't go with her because there was a girl on that party I was in love with.

Many of us slept there. On the next day she was crying and claiming that she got raped by one of my friends. (Keep in mind, we were all 16-18 year olds being irresponsibly drunk to the point of puking and passing out). Everybody was angry at him. My friend told his side of the story and it was exactly like mine. Then another friend admitted that he fingered her after she made a similar approach later that night. Then I spoke up and told my part of the story. People weren't so sure anymore that it was rape after that and she also calmed down.

Sorry for the long story.. but just saying.. It's a story with a lot of alcohol and we only heard one side and that said doesn't sound really convincing to me

exposed streamer cracks by drizzzybeats in LivestreamFail

[–]AnyTruersInTheChat 28 points29 points  (0 children)

I'm not defending Sky when I say this: as an outside observer to this entire smash bros drama and all that has been revealed these past few weeks about it, who has never paid any attention to the smash community - it is clear to me that the entire smash community is riddled with extremely broken, mentally ill, abused people. There are no winners here. It is extraordinarily sad to see how a community that was meant to be a place for people to unite through gaming, turned into a horrendous environment full of abuse, trauma and pain. Sky is so clearly mentally ill as well as being an asshole. It is no excuse for his behaviour but man... it's unbelievably depressing to witness.

xQc offers to buy gamer with disability a 2nd monitor. He uses tts to communicate in game and alt tabs to give comms. by EsoxAngler in LivestreamFail

[–]JmGx 41 points42 points  (0 children)

You'd surprised the way we have to work miracles with our disabilities. Took me a few weeks to properly play when I started streaming COD (have spinal muscular atrophy, am basically quadriplegic), but I do pretty well now and even have a win on solos under my belt >:D. ttv/iamjmgx (yeah, pretty much gave up on streaming because no one actually watches, but I still do it for fun here and there!)

Edit: OMG, thank you so much for the 3 follows. Really means a lot to me!

Edit 2: Wow, thanks for dat gold kind stranger!

xQc offers to buy gamer with disability a 2nd monitor. He uses tts to communicate in game and alt tabs to give comms. by EsoxAngler in LivestreamFail

[–]Potatoandbacon 2730 points2731 points  (0 children)

Mr felix thank you so much for the new monitor it will help me alot

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HarryMack pays tribute to Reckful during freestyle by IAmCorgii in LivestreamFail

[–]The_Peons_Champ 18 points19 points  (0 children)

My god how can his skull contain that giant thought pineapple. He's so damn smooth but not his brain that shit be wrinkly af

Reckful's roomate merkx twitlonger by Mahomeboy_ in LivestreamFail

[–]Rubbe123 3018 points3019 points 2 (0 children)

I should say this, for anyone that might end up in a similar situation. It seemed like Merkx was unaware of this. 101 behavior in truly suicidal people, once they have made up their mind on suicide, they will abruptly change their behavior and state of mind into a very positive one. They do this because they find comfort in all of the misery coming to and end.

The most important moment to not relax is when a person that was previously deeply suicidal flips and appears to be doing "better". They will feel better, and act like it for personal reasons, and as a mean to make people around them let their guard down in case they're being stopped by someone close to them.

Again, DO NOT relax when this behavior appears, this is often when you need to look out for them the most.

Edit: Coming out from years of depression and week long attempt of suicide doesn't happen over night. Don't fall for it, please.

Gross Gore vs Greek vs LSF by 420SwagBlazeDank420 in LivestreamFail

[–]BluwafflzCheeto 209 points210 points  (0 children)

Who fucking cares if other streamers complain about Greek?

If you don't like LSF just don't read it, it's that fucking simple 4HEad

Trainwrecks opinion on LSF. by Revenger109🐷 Hog Squeezer in LivestreamFail

[–]Bananathugg 168 points169 points  (0 children)

Can we stop making Reckful's suicide about LSF and bullying. That is not why Reckful took his life. Stop skewing Reckful's story and struggle to fit narratives.