Try to sleep. Can't sleep.

Try to sleep harder. Can't sleep.

Think about getting my phone. But I wanna sleep! So try even harder. Spend an hour or two rolling around. Get frustrated.

Fuck this. Reach for my phone. Go on Reddit, Youtube, whatever. Spend an hour or so fucking around. Alright! I'm sleepy now.

Can't fucking sleep. Reach for my phone again, try masturbating. That's oughtta work, right?!

Nope. Scream. Maybe a couple times.

Alright, Luke, relax. Shhhhh. Breathe. Breathe..... Oof. Reach for my phone, get on spotify, put on my sleeping playlist. Relax, Luke. Relax.

Spend the next hour trying to relax. Shhh. Breathe in. Breathe out. Michael Jackson wants to help. And I try to let him. But I am alone. I am alone damnit! You don't know shit, Mike! This is all too much. I open my eyes, but no scream this time. I'm too tired for that. I get up, go to kitchen, find some alcohol. Drink up, baby. Go back to bed. Lay in silence. Don't move. The alcohol warms me up. It's like a nice hug. I am alone no more, Michael! The darkness surrounds me. My mind numbs. Only silence remains.

RiinGGGGGAaaaDDDDDDIiiiiiiiiiiinGGGGGGGGGGGG.

I open my eyes. It's been two hours. Shit.